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SHUYANTALLY. 19 January.
My favourites are origami, candyfloss , dazzling lights , dreamcatcher , cactus , unfamiliar places , random bus rides , latenight phonetalk , tomyam soup , french fries , softtoys , tight hugs , music , shopping , daydreaming , ben&jerry's , stick skinny body , peaches , potatochips & definately surprises.
Sometimes when I'm bored, I draw people in my head. I procrastinate, alot. I listen to music on a regular basis but the best times are usually when I'm on the bus. On days when I'm upset, I would REALLY cry out loud. Definately am a perfectionist. Hate frizzy hair days , roachies & crossing bridges. I always wish that I were somebody else, maybe superman perhaps, my red cape in the wind, ever so free.
My blog is a collection of my perspectives, thoughts and emotions. I write when I wanna write, what I write. Your critism is totally - way out. Other than that, I guess you're pretty welcome. WAZZUP.


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Title: When was the last time you did things for the first time? I asked.

6:21:00 AM
Sunday, September 26, 2010
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So not perfect. I hate the fact that I'm always having such a low-self-esteem regardless on how hard I tried to improve my thinking each time. It's crazed. Recently I felt hurt again, cause I knew a fact that is not gng to change. I was utterly shocked when I knew that... Entangled in a 4-sided r/s is really insane. I guessed none of them knew except me & keisha. Sometimes it's really amusing seeing & knowing things totally unexpected. My way of life kept changing & I've got no time to notice them even till now. Not that I want to know either...


Fell sick yesterday, with my horrible sorethroat, adding on was my cough & half sub-sided fever, not to mention flu. I'm really exhausted be it mentally or physically.
My mind is in a swirl of state, r/s, money, friends, family,studies..etc etc. way too many to handle. Let the physical flow in with my health failing & with my illness(sick) now, gawdz. I need a break.

I'm really not cut of to be some awesome,brillant,omgawd woa person in life srsly. Perhaps a simple me will do the trick. I guessed I've been way too greedy, wanting almost everything possible. I'm dead tired of those trying. It's hurting so badly. I'm such a crazy insane nutty screw-loose person sometimes. Not to mention, weirdness. I can't seem to find anyone like me, thinking like me or worst understanding me. Perhaps I've to face everything alone. Those thoughts that are running through my mind naow are totally crazed.
How haywire my mind can be actually. I'm wondering...

O's is coming in another 29 days. 4 weeks?
Wish me luck. I'm dying. literally.



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