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Title: Tragic.
I'm pretty exhausted after all that had happened.
I had to be home for 1 whole month? Walking with a cast on my left foot & literally crutches with me for this panthetic 30 days? Just by the though of it is killing me already. Thinking about the fun I'm gng to miss out & those awesome shopping trips, ktv till morning, chitchat till late & the fact that I'm going to spend my one month at home? doing nothing?
How I wish I can sleep this one month away & the next thing I know, I'm out having fun with my lovely bbg(s) & friends. I don't really wish any of them to come over my hse either cause I look disgustingly horrible. Yet I'm so bored. I feel like stepping out of the house this instant but I couldn't even stand up without the help of my crutches. Tell me why )':
I didn't expect a simple fall could be so tragical.
I'm really bored to tears @ home. Facing the 4 walls in my room is literally killing me.
): Not to mention, no more BKK trip for me till Dec?
I wanna cry so badly now, LIKE REALLY )':
Title: When was the last time you did things for the first time? I asked.
 So not perfect. I hate the fact that I'm always having such a low-self-esteem regardless on how hard I tried to improve my thinking each time. It's crazed. Recently I felt hurt again, cause I knew a fact that is not gng to change. I was utterly shocked when I knew that... Entangled in a 4-sided r/s is really insane. I guessed none of them knew except me & keisha. Sometimes it's really amusing seeing & knowing things totally unexpected. My way of life kept changing & I've got no time to notice them even till now. Not that I want to know either...
Fell sick yesterday, with my horrible sorethroat, adding on was my cough & half sub-sided fever, not to mention flu. I'm really exhausted be it mentally or physically.
My mind is in a swirl of state, r/s, money, friends, family,studies..etc etc. way too many to handle. Let the physical flow in with my health failing & with my illness(sick) now, gawdz. I need a break.
I'm really not cut of to be some awesome,brillant,omgawd woa person in life srsly. Perhaps a simple me will do the trick. I guessed I've been way too greedy, wanting almost everything possible. I'm dead tired of those trying. It's hurting so badly. I'm such a crazy insane nutty screw-loose person sometimes. Not to mention, weirdness. I can't seem to find anyone like me, thinking like me or worst understanding me. Perhaps I've to face everything alone. Those thoughts that are running through my mind naow are totally crazed. How haywire my mind can be actually. I'm wondering...
O's is coming in another 29 days. 4 weeks? Wish me luck. I'm dying. literally.
Title: Wassssupz
Had been home these 2 days(Wed/Thurs). Pretty worn out after so many nights out so I guess it's a good time for me to rest @ home(being home & staying out of the real world seems so much happier.)
So I presumed many of my readers are getting bored of my blog posts these days uh. Nothing much interesting coming/happened. Sadly, I don't wish to have any interesting happening too. Cause it's just too breath-taking. I don't think I'll have any more extra energy for those either. I just simply adore normal & simple daily routine life. Like that, I'm more than satisfied alr.
So how's my preparation for my O's? I guessed many of you are wondering. It's really so tough. 30 days left to those deadly examinations. I'm afraid yes I am yet I'm always slacking & wasting tons of time away. I know I've complained a billion time or even more, it's really irritating. Omgawdzx. I hate the despise look people can give you everytime when they heard I left school. FK it k, you all just don't understand what I've been through, why I quit school(though I always say I was stress thats why I left, it's bullshitz), how hard I tried to survive, how difficult is it for me to overcome all those problems I had these few years. You guys DON'T FREAKING KNOW AT ALL. Not even my closest friends. It's like my deep down secret. Even if I say it, no one can ever uds, cause you guys was'nt the one that had been through it! I was on the verge of giving up my life at that point of time. Way too drama, way too complicating. Urged. But thank God , at least I'm so much better now. I'm living as a normal person(hopfully), having a normal routine in life. I thank God for all really. Perhaps through those darkest days of my life, I've learnt more. To treasure more & to love more. So it's Friday already(1:02am). TGIF(like everyone said.) & I'm meeting my dear seokyee for sth special. Hopefully all will turn out well. Yup, balloons, candles & bubbles. Not to mention, many more stuffs. hehehhe. Can't wait ! Well, I'm currently watching some dramas I found online to keep me company these 2 days. At least I won't think so much & be sooooo depresssssed. Moodswing for all teenagers? Now I finally agree. When I was young, I was like huh? what? moodswing? for what? & stuffs... but now I know. It's like something outta of your control. If only we don't have sad times right? But contridictingly , if we don't have sad times, we don't even know how impt happy times are. So yup, pros & cons here & there in almost every aspect. Such a long draggy & wordy post indeed. So I guessed I shall stop here & perhaps update more about my life soon(-: Bye guys. See ya here again^^
Title: SUP SUP YO <-:
Guess what? it's freaking 7:05am & I'm not asleep yet. Just got back from Cine KTV with Eliza & Shiyun! Not to mention, Keisha, Ruth, Darryltong, Wisely & Chow was next door! Gng to both rooms , standing to sing, dancing like mad, screaming, toilet freakyness & etc etc! Totally exhausted! Cab home & finally bathed! Felt so much better after touching fresh water! HA!(-:
hhahahahahahaa promise all Ktv's photos next time when Shiyun uploaded them k(-:
Not to mention Tong/Manxuan's chalet(ytd) those photos too!! SOON SOON K! + videos !! HAHAHA, Need to wait for them to upload! It was totally crazed!!!! But it's pretty fun & funny seeing so many pple drunk(talking nonsense & walking so clumsily) ! Godzxzxz! haha!!! Overall - FUN ! (-: Once again HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY TO BOTH ! (-: Love love love!!!!! K, BYE GUYS! SLP TIGHT! NIGHT FOLKS! Immaaz gng to die on my bed naow ! Zzzz(yawns)
Title: Scape (Friday)
WAZZZZUPSZXZ WAZZZUPSZXZCVZVCXZ GUYS !
Title: “Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending.”
Yesterday was crazed @ Scape. Started off feeling really lousy bout' myself , ended up feeling superb tired & exhausted till I could hardly care if I was lookin' olright. But then again, it was pretty fun accompanied by my lovely bbg(s). Thank God for them, if not I would literally die inside. However for me to sum up the club(in whole) , it wasn't that fun afterall, considering the gang poems... thirst... tiredness... boring crowd?.. idk, just not as fun. Perhaps it's time for me to stop clubbing & just sell tickets - home. Idea eh... (light-bulbs) hehe!
Not to mention, Wisely Olp. Thanks so much for yesterday! Promise to work hard starting from next event k. (smile)
Saw a few familiar faces, however, some really makes me sick & annoyed & the others , SO EXCITED TO HUG THEM. Sometimes it's really the characters that make people think you're pretty/handsome.
You know what I mean. HA HA HA K, bye.
Title: Long time back @ august sheesha-ing with clique ! (-:
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