Waking up at 3am is seriously no joke. Plain boring I swear, having said that I'm really quite sick today till I vomitted. Missed out the show at sentosa along with E,SY,K,A & HK. Thousand apologies guys): But luckily my dear Eliza can get tickets for me on Sunday!!! I'm so happy & thankful for that!

Moving on, I've been rather depressed bout' my size/weight. Really am depressed. I can just break down & cry just because I don't feel nice bout' myself. I tend to cry to sleep almost everyday this week. It's really hard to handle. ): I wish I'm not so down at times. It's really drivin' me nuts. I tried to give up , I really tried but the harder I try the harder it's stuck right into my mind (regarding my size). Esp when I'm going out, deciding on clothes to wear. Doubt many can understand this , so yupp, it's okay. Go ahead & judge me if you felt it's so lame. Let me tell you what, you fking don't understand it.

Crazily enough, I'm eating again like NOWzzz. SrslyI can't control my mind. It's so fk up I swear.

I feel happy when I eat, I feel sad when I eat, I feel srsly fixed when I think bou't it. LOL.

Gettin' aside those unpleasent issues , guess what? I'm pleading my mom so hard these days to actually allow me to travel to BKK with S.Y this Nov/Dec! I really want to go so badly like srslyyyyyyyyy!!! It's like I WANT IT so so so so so badly. Hopefully my mom will allllooowww , so at least I can shop like SO DAMN CRAZY in those CHEAP CLOTHES & forget almost everything in Singaporeee ~~~ whoopswhoooppps!!!! I AM SO SO GNG TO BKKKKKK~

K, blogging in the middle of the night it's reallyyyyyyyyyy COOL. Cause at least you have sth to do but after this post I'm back to boring(nessss). Okay maybe I should go to youtube.com to watch some lame & cranky videos or a movie or 2 online till dawn breaks~~~~~

Bye guys !

(O's is coming in less than 2 monthhhzzzzzzsss , panick panick panick hard peeeeps.)

(Day 9.)